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Dear Little Bean,
It's been a little while since I've had a chance to sit down and write to you. I guess the difference is that now, I can talk to you. Although you can't really hear me yet, I still talk to you all the time. It still doesn't feel real to me. I sometimes question whether or not you are really living inside, in your comfortable temporary home. I'm so glad God chose you for me. Your dad an I are already planning for you. We started cleaning yesterday after being snowed in for the third time this winter. We are going to rearrange the apartment to better meet your needs when you arrive. I'm so excited about getting to know you!!
With Valentine's Day coming up, I've been calling you my "Love Bug." But don't worry, you're still Little Bean (Beanette). I can't wait to find out which team you are on, pink or blue. I don't have too many more weeks to wait, time sure is going by quickly!
Now, let me tell you a few reasons why I already love you. I love you because:
- You are my first Love Bug.
- You came as the prize for a long journey through faith and perseverance.
- You are a child of God.
- You are precious and beautiful.
- You are part of me.
Oh, Little Bean, I'm waiting ever so patiently to meet you face to face. Until then, I love you more and more each day. I'm looking forward to knowing if you are a girl or a boy and getting to see you again on an ultrasound. Only 5 more weeks until that day. I'll try to wait patiently...
Love,
Mom
Dear Little Bean,
Your mama really had some scary moments yesterday. I woke up to find some brown spotting and my heart sank. I immediately called the doctor. Need to make sure you are okay, you know? You are a gift from God and just like with all gifts, I know that He gives and takes away. But I prayed to keep you.
So I saw the doctor today to make sure you were okay. What an amazing experience. You are so well developed already. I can't believe it. You waved at me with a perfect hand with five perfect little fingers. I saw your spine, and its beautiful straight line. It was such a wonderful experience. For as scared as I was, to hear your heartbeat again and see every part of you was such a relief. I am so glad you are okay. Everything about you is fine.
Keep on growing in there, my Little Bean. You still have a long time to wait to meet me face to face. Just stay healthy in there!
Love,
Mom
Dear Little Bean,
It's still such a strange thing to know that you are living inside of me. You have taken up residency in my womb. It's amazing to think about that.
I'm waiting ever so patiently to find out if you are a girl or a boy. But it still seems like forever away to wait. It's another two months of waiting to get that ultrasound so that I can prepare for you, my love. Mommy wants to make everything perfect for you.
Your dad is getting more excited. He talks to you all the time. I know you can't hear him yet, but that's okay. He'll keep talking to you and one of these weeks, you will finally be able to hear his voice.
Your furry sister still doesn't know about you. I guess she'll have to wait until you are born to understand. She thinks she's the baby these days and since you took up a home in my womb, she has been more of a "Mommy's Girl." It's funny to realize that she knows that things are different, even if she doesn't know how. She was always "Daddy's Girl" and cuddles up on his lap to get her ears rubbed. Now, she cuddles up with me on my lap and wants to be loved. She's got a shocker coming over the summer when she realizes that she is a dog and not really a baby.
Until my next letter, my child, remember that Mommy and Daddy love you very much. It's such an amazing experience to know that you and I are a few months closer to meeting each other. 200 days to go until our expected meeting...
Love,
Mom
My Darling Child,
I got a chance to see you again this week. 10 weeks in, still feels like forever until we can meet face to face. But time is going by!
I was so excited to see your hands and feet. How amazing it is! I saw your beautiful heart beating away again and got to listen to it. Amazing. Nothing is as precious as knowing you are finally growing, real, living.
My child, you are beautiful already. I can't wait to see you again. Although, that probably won't be until 20 weeks when I can find out if you are a girl or a boy.
I have fallen in love with you already, my child. A mother's love is undeniable. I loved you before I knew you existed and now, that love is just growing. My heart melts every time I see you. And each time, I see something else that is new, that has grown. You are precious and loved already.
Love,
Mom
Dear Little Bean,
Can you believe you are almost 8 weeks into your development already? I can't believe how time flies by. Your first Christmas will be spent inside Mommy's womb. But it will still be special!! I still can't believe that you and I are really getting to know each other instead of dreaming about that day. It seemed like it was forever across the horizon and then all of a sudden, you were here!
I get to see you again on Wednesday. I can't wait. It will be so exciting. I'm always nervous about, just wanting everything to be perfect. I know it will be. Your heart was beating so steadily last week, and that was unbelievable. What a feeling. I can't even begin to tell you how it feels to hear that sound and see the flickering on the screen of the little heart that is yours. Some day, when you are married and expecting a baby, you will understand the emotions Mommy is having. You will understand the love I have had for you since before you even entered my body.
Little Bean, this is just such an exciting time! I'm so glad you and I are getting to know each other and I can't wait for more passing weeks and months spent together.
Love,
Mom
Dear Little Bean,
I finally saw you for the first time tonight!! I can't tell you how exciting it is to know that you are really there, growing! I didn't hear your heartbeat yet, but you are still so small and it's too early. Right now, you're the size of a grape. Little Bean, that's little! But it's wonderful.
I got a little teary eyed when the doctor pointed to the screen today and said "That's your baby." He was pointing to you, of course! You're really here! I can't believe it still. I am in love with you, you are absolutely beautiful and perfect. You and I are going to get to know each other very well over the next few months! I'm so excited for your future life. Keep growing, Little Bean. Make Mama proud!
Love,
Mom
Dear Baby,
You are growing nicely inside. My bloodwork says that you are moving along, growing, changing. It's so exciting to know that we get to spend this time together, getting to know each other. I'm excited to finally see you.
At this point, I don't know if there's only one of you or if you have siblings in there, too. I will find out soon. Mommy can't wait for the first ultrasound to make sure everything is going well.
It still seems unreal to me. I can't believe that you are no longer just a cheerful, beautiful dream. You are real, living, growing. I can't wait, Little Bean, to see you!
Love,
Mom
